illusions.

i wanted this top in the 'Mm' or the 'Kk' or the 'Zz' and i would have even settled on the 'Gg' but stupid American Apparel are out of stock on all of them. the last 'S' size they have left, and 'S' on unisex is already treading on thin ice is the Aa which, i guess i can put up with but its just, well. not what i wanted.
there is actually so much stuff i want right now. i made a lil wishlist but its in a scrapbook, so i'll try get it on here, but you know. no promisessss.
i kinda feel like i deserve something nice tho, as i've spent the whole weekend just cleaning, and injuring myselfff (: i have like, a half-nailed toe, and a small hole where i feel onto a fridge shelf!) im cool.
anywayyyy, i stilll need to do my german+art+go have a shower and get credit and i was gonna tidy my room, but its just really not gonna happen is ittt? no.

oh embarassing top shrinkage.

this was yesterday. and i still haven't got over it.

oasis still and fruity

hiii! so im way more cheered up than i was yesterday. i've just come back from an intense afternoon in town with ma bez and it was all just really luscious, and the way i love things being. i wont ramble cos nothing i say will mean much to you, but i just wanttt to say, that i love being back in this mood again.

but now its heads down for the weekend for hardcore work+sleep so when monday comes, i can continue thisss (wanting to say 'paradise' but its oh so cheesy) forever! XD

effort to load up todays picsss, so instead you can have a golden-oldie. (oh god, you can tell its late. ;D)

wheeey! its the classic cookie photo that got plastered just about everywhereeeee. always a fave tho!

miserabke

noooo! are you freaking kidding me that yesterdays post didnt upload! gah that just makes me even more angry. it was seriously my cutest post yet, full on love-sesh and dedication to my best friend and the only person taht actualyl reads these blogssss. (letss not name names now ;D )
gutted man.
i am also having just such a bad day.
i feel upset and miserable and annoyed, and i dont even know why. so when people ask me, i jsut have to do that annoying thing where i shrug it off, and everythings really getting to me. i have no credit, all my friends aer off ill, everyones off for the weekend and im stuck doing homework, and im really just. GAHFAJACK at this whole week. i wanna be thankful for everything i've got as i know my life is so good now, but i jsut cant seem to get my head around how lucky i am, and i just sit here all miserable all day.
soz for the rant.
i'll be back to normal soon, i hope.
xxxxx

whats up with my mind? lets not let this all unwind,

fuckkgfng. i couldnt remember if i wrote here yesterday, cos i had that thing, where you dream something, and then you don't know if its real or not? and yeah, it turns out it was a dream and i didnt write so im gutted.

i felt all wierd today. im not sure why i just really wanted to come home and get away from school. freaked me out, cos right now, i actually LOVE school. however gay it might sound. but today, i just wanted to run home and get away from it all. :/

oh, and i'm seriously on my 4th cup of tea right now. my throat is all hot and i can feel it all running down into my tummy too. but i actually CANT stop myself. i forgot how nice this stuff was.
i also got this actually HUGE parcel in the post today, which i was insane excited about, and then i opened it, and its 3 like, 1x1 metre bags that i bought off ebay like, a month ago that never came ^^
im still buzzingg tho. whether thats excitement or teaaaa, i do not knoww.

you guys are my best friends(: xxx

all i need is, a little more you

morning!
everyone always thinks sundays are so depressing, but i really really do like them.
the fact that its the 'last day' in so many minds makes me do all the things i have wanted/needed to do all week. plus, noone ever goes out anywhere proper on sundays, so i can laze around without feeling like a no-friended gay. oh,
plan for today:
-go to sleep for a few more hours
-do ALL my art. every last speccccc
-tidy my room

this will hopefully be pretty easy as i have run out of contacts so i can barely see a thing unless i wear my ugly glasses.
i'm housebound, which for me, will always mean bed-bound.

welcome back!

sorry i havent updated this in forever. i am alive, i'm just abit overwhelmed by the world. things are amazing right now. we're on 4-day-break which means lots of sleep+doing what i want all day. it also means photo overload!